you lost me…

many of my friends wondering, why did I leave 21 years of home church. I did not. I never did.

it was never an option to leave your family .. you just don’t do that if you’re normal. especially family who has been with you for such a long time. it was never an option for me to leave a family.

Abandon was the word accused to me when I was leaving. “why you abandon us ?”; “why you’re leaving if you love us ?”. never in my head popped up an idea of abandoning anybody. if anybody feels so .. I am so sorry.

the church was never just the local church for me, it was my family, my whole life, my whole being was there. So I didn’t leave … I just change the circumstances, change the leadership, the organization, the chances, and the surroundings. I can’t explain the whole thing, not here not everywhere. I had struggled for years, it’s not easy .. never was, it’s personal and after all this time, if you ask, do you still have feelings? I will answer: Always. will always be proud I was part of them, regardless of everything.

the bible is very clear about putting on believers being part of the local church, many followers of Christ try to live the Christian life apart from serious, personal commitment to a local church the reasons are many, we are self-reliant and self-sufficient, and the kind of mutual interdependence and even submission and accountability to other that the bible talks about frightens us. we are often indecisive, hopping from one church to another looking for the “perfect place” and the “perfect people”. many of us have been hurt in the past by things that have happened to or around us in the church, and others of us simply don’t see the importance of being specifically connected to a local church.

I didn’t leave because of the many reasons mention above. I know the local church is important. God has entrusted local churches with godly leaders who will teach me His Word and care for my soul. that’s why I am rooted to where I am now, the house.

posted October 22nd 2017